Just Cry: Mother’s Day Reflection
As the world prepared to go on a happy craze for Mothers Day my anxiety only increased as I was reminded of how this day is not so Happy. In fact it is Crappy. You open fresh roses and SUCH and I am reminded how this day SUCKS. I have been longing for my mother’s...
Celebrate Your Strength of Gratitude
You know that feeling when something "goes your way", like getting a good spot in a crowded parking lot or discovering an item you really want on sale. It might be quick and fleeting, but what you probably feel is a brief moment of gratitude. "Thank you for this small...
The Quit Code
A night before the boogie man night of Halloween where thousands flock to the door of strangers essentially begging for sweet treats. The more creative my costume, make up and mask the larger portion of goodies that is tossed inside my already stuffed bucket of sugar...
Fake Self Care
Life seems like a pile of struggles one after the next. I’m trying to make ends meet. My boss attempts to oppress me by checking in on my every move, I have adult children making insane decisions and a kid who decided not to come home after school. I crawl down to the...
Stress Test
Day 2 Hospital Stay I was awaken by a cardiologist dude who wheeled me down long hallways to our destination where a treadmill awaited me. As he gave instructions of how I needed to hold into the rails without letting go, my mind wandered a bit. I thought how I too...
A Convo with Dora!
Day 2 in hospital checking if a heart blockage exist but so far looking good. As hospital demand admissions we patients are stocked piled in unusual pockets of non traditional rooms. Freaking urinated smelled bathroom but darn good cardiology clinic..guess gotta pick...
13 Years Clean
God always tends to allow me to encounter some creative divine people no matter what situation I am in. I sat in the lobby waiting for processing in hospital to be admitted. The nurse began cracking jokes as she wheeled me to the back room. She made me smile for once...
Hidden Treasure
Today was a day I was admitted to the hospital due to chest pain. Likely pained for having loved soo strong to the point of exhaustion. My heart participating in goofy flutters that has me feeling sorta uneasy. As I wait long hours for a hospital room to become...
The Fight
Today was interesting to say the least. I was humbled by a guy during our treatment group. Each week these guys come together to share any weekly barriers to discharging from one of California most unjust Justice penal systems. Some guys had pages filed with entries,...
Locked Out
Have you ever raced home after work, bags in hand, maybe with a urgent need to pee like crazy? You find house super dark as if electricity was cut off and you become numb questioning if you’ve perhaps forgotten to pay the bill. Racing up sidewalk dodging lizards and...