Just Cry: Mother’s Day Reflection
As the world prepared to go on a happy craze for Mothers Day my anxiety only increased as I was reminded of how this day is not so Happy. In fact it is Crappy. You open fresh roses and SUCH and I am reminded how this day SUCKS. I have been longing for my mother’s...
Even The Clouds Cry
Driving home while thinking I mean in a deep thought about life and the mistakes and the expensive price paid when one grows impatient, desperate and lonely. Longing for someone you love to be set free when you alone remain in captivity. Every hole in my body leaks...
Rehab
Missing my babies i never met. This place gives me triggers...how can I forget. She smiles on outside but deep inside she's pained angry raging inside..trying to keep it together on this HELL of a ride. I doubt the confirmations that seems so true but on the other...
Earthquake
Omg On (11/27/18) in Cali there was an earthquake around 5am and then again during the lunch hour. I felt the one at lunch; I was sitting in a car with a co-worker as we often sleep during lunch to rest from our very long dreadful days. We commute from afar in an...
Mass Marketing Hassle
Have you ever just sat back and watched the utter chaos that mass marketing brings and the impact it has on the human species? It is amazing to witness the person who claims to be broke to miraculously have resources to tap into the endless sales that are parading...
Celebrate Your Strength of Gratitude
You know that feeling when something "goes your way", like getting a good spot in a crowded parking lot or discovering an item you really want on sale. It might be quick and fleeting, but what you probably feel is a brief moment of gratitude. "Thank you for this small...
The Quit Code
A night before the boogie man night of Halloween where thousands flock to the door of strangers essentially begging for sweet treats. The more creative my costume, make up and mask the larger portion of goodies that is tossed inside my already stuffed bucket of sugar...
Fake Self Care
Life seems like a pile of struggles one after the next. I’m trying to make ends meet. My boss attempts to oppress me by checking in on my every move, I have adult children making insane decisions and a kid who decided not to come home after school. I crawl down to the...
Stress Test
Day 2 Hospital Stay I was awaken by a cardiologist dude who wheeled me down long hallways to our destination where a treadmill awaited me. As he gave instructions of how I needed to hold into the rails without letting go, my mind wandered a bit. I thought how I too...
A Convo with Dora!
Day 2 in hospital checking if a heart blockage exist but so far looking good. As hospital demand admissions we patients are stocked piled in unusual pockets of non traditional rooms. Freaking urinated smelled bathroom but darn good cardiology clinic..guess gotta pick...